I held my coat by the hood. Mummy was running her fingers around the seams. Mummy was having a no cuddles day. She was sweaty. Her eyes were all red. She pulled the coat out of my hands. She had the small scissors from the top drawer and was picking at the stitching along the bottom of my coat.
The front door was open making my arms go all shivery. I told Mummy that I was cold. She’d got the white padding stuff out of my coat and was pouring water all over it. She told me to get my old coat from the pile in the garage. The bag was ripped open. All the clothes were out and ripped up. My old coat had a tear down the back. I put it on as I was still cold and the wind came in under the garage door.
Mummy took my hand and pulled me out of the house. She was making those funny humming noises. Mummy stopped walking and pulled me against her leg. There was a man sitting in a red van. Mummy turned and made us cross the road behind the van. Then we went the other way.
Mummy started to walk really fast. I had to start running next to her. We stopped as the red van went past. Mummy was really squeezing me tightly. I asked her if she was okay, but I don’t think she was really listening.
I saw Jennifer with her Mummy on the other side of the road. She had a pink scooter with purple wheels. It was her birthday party at the weekend. I waved. Her Mummy looked at us. I waved at her, but she didn’t wave back. She was looking at Mummy. Mummy was pulling at her hair. She has long blond hair which she’d let me brush. I saw some of Mummy’s hair drop onto the pavement. There was some more caught in her ring.
We started walking again. I could hear Mummy breathing. She was making a lot of noise.
We took the shortcut through the park. There were some people walking dogs. There were some people sitting on the benches. Mummy didn’t want to go near them, so we went across the grass.
Mummy pointed at a man. He was sitting on the bench near to the gate. I saw a boy from my class with his big brother. I don’t know his name. Mummy said the man was the same one who had been in the red van. We started to run, and squeezed through the gate in front of the boy and his brother. Their dad told us to slow down, but Mummy didn’t hear him. She was looking back at the man on the bench. The man on the bench was on his phone.
Mrs Kowalski made the cars all stop so we could cross the road safely. She said good morning. I smiled at her. Mummy was squeezing my hand really tightly. She was humming. Mrs Kowalski asked her if she was ok. Mummy was looking at Mr Jefferies and Mrs Antonio who were standing on each side of the school gate.
Mummy said we had to get away from there. We had to run through all the children and their parents who were going to school. They all stopped and looked at us. My hair had come loose and was getting in my eyes so I had to push it back behind my ears. Mummy stopped. She said that Mr Jefferies and Mrs Antonio were coming, but I couldn’t see them. We had to run again until we got to the cafe.
The lady in the cafe looked at Mummy. Mummy was making humming noises still, but the radio was on, so the other people couldn’t hear her. She had a little bit of blood on her forehead. It must have been from where her hair had been. She still had some hair under her ring. I pulled it out and held it.
I told Mummy I needed a wee and she looked at me. Her eyes were all watery. The blood was running down her forehead. The bottom bit was going into her eye. I told her I needed a wee again.
Mummy was looking out the window. She was talking about the people at the school and the man in the park. And the man in the red van. She was mumbling.
I went to the toilet. I knew where it was. When I had done a wee I washed my hands. I used the soap from the blue bottle. I went out and Mummy was shouting at a man who was sitting at the little table by the door. He had been typing on the keyboard. He was there when we went in. Mummy was shouting that he was writing down what she was thinking. She was yelling at him and standing next to him. He had a cup of coffee next to his computer.
The woman had come out from behind the counter. She was telling Mummy to calm down, but Mummy wouldn’t. Mummy grabbed the man’s computer and threw it across the cafe. I heard it smash. The man stood up. He knocked his coffee over. Mummy slapped the man across the face which made him sit back down really quickly. She was screaming a lot.
Daddy had arrived with the car. People were looking through the window with their phones up. I saw daddy shouting at them. He slapped a phone and the person dropped it on the floor. Mummy was still screaming at the man. He was holding her wrists. I think she was trying to hit him again but he didn’t want her to so he was holding her wrists.
Daddy came in and started cuddling Mummy. He told her the school had called him. Mummy was crying. The man let go of her wrists, and daddy took her outside where she got into the car. Daddy leant over and put the seatbelt on.
I went out so I wasn’t left in the cafe on my own. Mummy was still crying. Daddy started shouting at the people who were pointing their phones at her. Some of them were laughing. Daddy slammed the front car door. He lifted me into the back and put on my straps. Ally the purple alien was next to my seat so I gave him a cuddle. Daddy drove off really fast. He said he was going to drop me with nana Jean. He said he was going to take Mummy to a special person who would be able to help her at the hospital. They would make her better.
Mummy didn’t say anything. She wasn’t even making the humming noise.
I told Mummy I loved her.